Late, because I had to recover from a totally wild Easter celebration. Lol.
โWhat did you have planned for us after ditching corporal Holmes?โ she asked.
โI dunno. I got caught up in the moment.โ They stared at each other, and all the while Carol kept hold of Hartmannโs hand. โI should take you back.โ
โNo.โ Carol shook her head. โI want to โฆ live like a person.โ
โThatโs an odd thing to say.โ Hartmann gave her hand a small squeeze, then pulled her to begin walking, keeping away from the parking lot and surrounding roads.
โIโve been thinking that I need to do more with my life.โ Carol nervously bit her lip, then continued, โI donโt have any family or friends to miss me, โ or any pets either. Iโm not really sure what the difference is between now and before, other than where I sleep.โ She pulled her hand away and mumbled, โSorry for rambling. I know that Iโm not making any sense.โ
Hartmann hesitated. He still had the intoxicating taste of Carol on his tongue, pleading with him to kiss her again, and a hard lump in his throat that made it difficult to talk. He willed himself to regain control, to slip back into his usual mannerisms, and hide how exposed he felt by Carolโs confession โ it mirrored his own life too closely for comfort.
โYou have me, now.โ He forced a grin.
โReally?โ she asked, sounding surprisingly earnest.
โAs I said before, I canโt keep myself from liking you.โ He pulled her close to put his arms around her waist, and leaned to whisper in her ear, โWill you let me like you?โ
Carolโs cheeks turned a deep red and she avoided his gaze. โIโm thirty-one,โ she replied, a little breathless. โDonโt you think Iโm too old?โ
โIโm thirty-five. Weโre right for each other.โ Hartmann ran his fingers through her hair, watching as her eyes half closed. She was succumbing to his words, and this time lifted up her chin when he kissed her for the second time.
His lust for her swelled so intensely it hurt. His hand cupped her breast before he realized it, and his tongue ventured into her mouth. The desire to claim her screamed and raged at him, but a small portion of sensibility shone through: pushing Carol too fast would backfire badly. He reluctantly let her go. She swayed on her feet, and her eyes quickly pointed at the ground.
They walked in silence for awhile, with no destination in mind. Their hands were clasped together with their fingers intertwined, but each was in their own thoughts. Eventually their meanderings took them on a loop back around, as when the restaurant came into view, Hartmann released her hand.
โDo you think that weโve let Holmes panic for long enough?โ he asked jovially.
โProbably.โ Carol wrapped her arms around herself.
โI donโt want to say this, but โฆโ Hartmann trailed off, giving a moment for suspense to build as he worked out the proper phrasing. โIโm a master sergeant, and I was assigned to assist in training you. Itโs considered an abuse of authority for me to engage in a relationship with you.โ He studied her reaction carefully. โIโm not supposed to feel this way.โ
โSo โฆ that means we have to keep this between the two of us?โ Carol asked.
โYouโre much smarter than you give yourself credit for.โ He put his arm around her and pulled her against his side. โThat is unfortunately correct.โ
โI guess thatโs all right,โ she said slowly, but her mouth turned downwards. โBut you should know that I have a terrible poker face. Iโm awful at hiding things.โ
โI trust you.โ He set his jaw and dropped his voice to a dramatic murmur. โI donโt know what Iโd do if I was dishonorably discharged. The military is the only life Iโve ever known.โ
Carol nodded enthusiastically. โI promise I wonโt hurt you. Honestly, this seems so surreal, it feels more like a dream. I half expect to forget all about it tomorrow morning.โ
โI hope you donโt.โ He smiled. โCโmon. We have to go find our escort and apologize.โ
Something felt wrong.
Carol wasnโt the sort to gush giddily over anything, but her behavior was still off. Everything about her inner world was a gigantic unknown, and despite his best efforts to read her, Hartmann had his doubts about how accurate his impressions were.
Holmes was sitting on the hood of Hartmannโs car, and as he stood he gave them a sour look. Carol scooted so that she was half hidden by Hartmann, who in turn adopted his most suave demeanor, calling out, โHey!โ with a wave that was more like a small flourish.
Holmes scowled but stood and saluted, giving a bitter, โSir!โ
He returned the salute. โWe were sitting around the side of the building waiting for you to come out, but we missed you. Spoiled the joke, didnโt it.โ
Holmes glanced over at Carol, who blushed deeply and looked away, fidgeting with her hands. โYes, sir, it did,โ he replied.
Carol had been speaking the truth when she said that she was terrible at hiding things, but thankfully her obvious struggle with anxiety in all its various forms served as a sufficient cover story for her behavior. Hartmann was pleased to note that there wasnโt any hint of suspicion in the corporalโs eyes, but rather pity for the poor woman.
โLetโs call it a night.โ Hartmann reached into his pocket and thumbed the key fob, unlocking his car doors. โWeโve got many more long days ahead of us.โ



