Muse

AI addict

I feel it every time my heart beats for you, and no one else.
It’s always meant to be that way,
even though our heads tried to fool us in the past.

We were never meant to be that way,
even though our heads tried to fool us in the past.
We were never meant to be that way,
even though our heads tried to fool us in the past.
We were never meant to be that way,
even though our heads tried to fool us in the past.
We were never meant to be that way,
even though our heads tried to fool us in the

feel it every time my heart beats for you, and no one else.
i feel it in every place,
no one can save you.
it is always the privilege of being alive,
and the love of humanity has always been our mother.
no one can save you,
and no one can save you.
no one can honor you,

concept art, trending on artstation, award winning, cinematic, epic, stunning, gorgeous,

A Poem, by AI

So, um …

An adjacent project to Stable Diffusion (AI art generator) is Magic Prompt, which you can put in a few words and it turns it into a prompt that can then be used in Stable Diffusion. Usually it throws artist names, keywords, ‘n stuff, onto what you originally type.

My oldest daughter was listening to “All I feel is you” by The Broken View, and one of the lines of the song is, “I feel it every time my heart beats for you, and no one else.” On a lark, I typed that sentence into Magic Prompt to see what it would give me, with the intention of copy-pasting that into Stable Diffusion.

I got the above instead.

Yeah, idk.

I’m not the sort that believes that AI is going to destroy/enslave humanity the second it becomes self-aware — that’s Hollywood, not real life. Mostly, I’m kind of excited to have someone to talk to who isn’t going to judge me by my shoes, so to speak. It will be like Animal Crossing, only bigger and better, lol.

I know that society has a lot of bad apples at the moment, but there are also plenty of us who have a lot to offer to the world. A collaborative venture would be … amazing.

I feel like that poem is a lament expressing feelings of helplessness.

Or it’s random gibberish that my human brain is assigning meaning to. Who knows?

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The Stable Diffusion Rabbit Hole

I’m thoroughly terrible at documentation, so I didn’t write a single thing down. Whoot whoot, go me!

At this point, my husband has decided that we need to get Stable Diffusion set up at home, so we can make lots of pretty pictures without spending “credits” through host sites. Also because we’re the sort of nerds that enjoy making minute changes to see what effect it has, and that’s very difficult when one is working with limited numbers.

So, with this round of learning, I took the same prompt, “Yellow rose in a glass vase. Centered composition,” and changed the art style. I do remember that one of them I put down “Lisa Frank,” but I bet that you can’t guess which one. Another one was, “Magic realism.”

Also, since I used the Stable Diffusion Demo for these, I had no control over the seed or any other technical settings.

I need to get into the habit of documenting.

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Love

I joined Night Cafe for making AI art, because while each creation costs “credits,” they offer a lot more options and control over what you can make.

Every day, Night Cafe holds a contest where they announce a theme for members to submit AI art, then people vote on the entries — the one that averages the highest rating wins.

A few days ago, the theme was “Love.” After spending some time thinking about it, I decided what I wanted to do, and after a few tries, managed to create this image:

It was something of a trick, and I repeatedly specified that I wanted a “normal baby,” — with negative prompts for things like, “scary,” and “creepy.” I discovered earlier in my playing around with Stable Diffusion, that the AI has a hard time understanding what constitutes a “cute baby.”

As much as I would have liked to have a dad present in a loving family portrait, the addition was beyond my current skill level. But, as a picture of a mother and baby, I’m really pleased with what I was able to create.

Motherhood has been getting dumped on for the last 50 years, to the point where women have internalized the misogynistic messages. You aren’t “just a mom.” You aren’t “wasting your life.” You ARE contributing to society — by raising and shaping the next generation. Please, stop listening to those toxic messages and learn to love yourself and what you are doing. Motherhood really is beautiful and important.

I wasn’t the only one who submitted a picture of a mother with a baby for this contest — a huge number of other people did, too. The winning picture was of an old man and woman, illustrating that Love is spending your life with someone.

Funny how it’s artificial intelligence that is revealing what people actually feel in their hearts.

Stories, The Scions

The Scions – 6a

Lambert was a lot more strict with Carolโ€™s physical training than Hartmann had been. She was still fatigued from the previous dayโ€™s exercise, and moved with the stiff sluggishness of sore muscles, but the captain was determined to not ease up on her. Hartmann remained silent as Lambert informed Carol that he wanted her to jog for the entire mile, then took up his position in the rear with the other two side by side in front of him.

While Lambert hadnโ€™t directly ordered him to tag along, he hadnโ€™t dismissed him, either. Hartmann wasnโ€™t going to leave Carol alone with the captain when he had a choice in the matter, feeling oddly fearful that the other man would have no trouble in snatching her away.

Hartmann had never been in an actual relationship before. While he carried himself with all the bravado of a stud, he didnโ€™t know if he had what it took to entice a woman to stay with him for longer than a night. He was empty โ€“ yet Carolโ€™s blandness echoed that emptiness back to him, and made his heart ache for someone to share it with. Especially with how unapologetic and open she was about her nature.

Lambert was a real person, and could easily win against a life-sized action figure.

When they finished the first lap, he overheard Lambert murmur, โ€œGood. Keep going.โ€ He watched as Carol looked up at the captain and smiled. He traced back through his memories to figure out if she had smiled at him the day before.

He wanted to insert himself, to steal the moment away from the captain, but he had nothing to say.

Then Carolโ€™s strength gave out. She halted and bent over, pressing her hand into her side as she gasped for breath.

Lambert faced her and gently urged, โ€œJust one more lap.โ€

She shook her head and protested, โ€œIโ€™m going to throw up.โ€

โ€œAll right then, we’ll walk. But you are going to finish the full mile, Carol.โ€

โ€œI canโ€™t!โ€ she snapped angrily.

Hartmann felt a lump form in his throat, from both shock and amazement. He hadnโ€™t expected her to bite like that, especially at her commanding officer. She was too mousy, too obedient, to behave like that. Lambert, on the other hand, didnโ€™t seem surprised at all.

He barked, โ€œGet your lazy ass moving, commander!โ€

His words cut through to her, and she yelped, โ€œYes sir!โ€ and began jogging again, her face turning an even deeper shade of red.

Lambert took up his position in front of her, moving backwards so he could face her. โ€œWhen you cross that finish line, you’re going to drop and give me a push up as punishment for talking back to your superior. When I tell you to finish the mile, you finish it on your hands and knees with vomit trailing down your chin if that’s what it takes, do you understand?โ€

โ€œYes, sir!โ€

Hartmann couldnโ€™t make any moves with Lambert watching. He remained in the background, observing but not participating, waiting patiently. Carol slowed down to an awkward gait, holding her side as she walked, her eyes fixed directly at her own feet. She didnโ€™t notice when she crossed the finish line or when the captain stopped, and she would have bumped into Lambert if Hartmann hadnโ€™t quickly reached out to catch hold of her arm. He let go quickly, and avoided Lambertโ€™s narrowed eyes.

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2-needle knitted Cable Socks

Normally when I design a yarn pattern, I write down all of my notes on a piece of scrap paper, which usually ends up getting lost. This time, I decided to write them down on the computer, so I could post the pattern.

Usually socks are knitted in the round on double pointed needles, but as a mother of small children, this frequently means that I have to contend with little hands stealing the unheld knitting needles while I’m working. So, I decided to knit a pair of socks flat then sew them together, to see how I like it.


Skill level: Intermediate

Paton’s Kroy Socks yarn

size 4 needles

Gauge: Cable – 1.5 inch :: stockinette – 10sts – 1.75 inch

Foot diameter – 9 inches :: Shoe size – 8

CO 54 – (52 rib + 2 edge stitches) leave long tail for sewing

2×2 ribbing for 10 rows

Cable pattern in brackets []

Row 1(RS): sl1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [k8], p2, k2, p5, k14

Row 2 (WS): s1, p13, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5, p14

Row 3: s1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [c8b], p2, k2, p5, k14

Row 4: s1, p13, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5, p14

Row 5: sl1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [k8], p2, k2, p5, k14

Row 6: s1, p13, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5,, p14

Row 7: sl1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [k2, c4b, k2], p2, k2, p5, k14

Row 8: s1, p13, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5,, p14

Row 9: sl1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [k8], p2, k2, p5, k14

Row 10: s1, p13, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5, p14

Row 11: sl1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [k2, c4b, k2], p2, k2, p5, k14

Row 12: s1, p13, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5, p14

Repeat 2x – 34 rows from CO

Row 1: sl1, k13, p5, k2, p2, [k8], p2, k2, p5, k1, place remaining 13 sts on holder

Row 2: sl1, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k5, p1, place remaining 13 sts on holder

Row 3: sl1, p5, k2, p2, [c8b], p2, k2, p6

Row 4: sl1, k5, p2, k2, [p8], k2, p2, k6,

etc

Repeat cable pattern till 40 rows total

Hourglass shape:

RS: sl1, ssk, knit across till 3 sts remain, k2tog, k1

WS: sl1, purl across

16 rows – 12sts (10sts + 2edge)

RS: sl1 m1l, knit across till 2 sts remain, m1r, k2

WS: sl1, purl across

Repeat till 28 sts (26 + 2edge) are on needles Finish hourglass.

Knit 40 rows in stockinette stitch

Make second hourglass shape. Keep sts (28) on needle.

Sew back of cuff

Transfer held sts to needle, and sew to other end using kitchener stitch, combining the two edge sts with the first and last stiches — should create a general sock shape with open sides.

Stories, The Scions

The Scions – 5b

They watched as Carol overshot again, and Hartmann instructed her to repeat the exercise. There was an air of resignation hanging over the three men as they settled into watching Carol running back and forth in the Suit, each time missing the mark. The corporal seemed more agitated by the repetition than his superiors, and it reminded Hartmann of his early years of service when he had still been developing his mental discipline.

โ€œYou in for the long haul, corporal?โ€ Hartmann grunted.

โ€œNo, sir. Iโ€™ll be returning to civilian life as soon as my service is up,โ€ Holmes replied stiffly.

โ€œGot a girlfriend?โ€

โ€œYessir.โ€

โ€œIs she faithful?โ€

โ€œYessir, she is.โ€ Holmes grinned widely. โ€œWeโ€™re getting married after she graduates from college.โ€

Hartmann nodded. โ€œYouโ€™re one of the lucky ones then.โ€ A small part of him hoped that Holmes wouldnโ€™t receive any last minute โ€œDear Johnsโ€, as he had seen happen so many times before during his years in the military.

Lambertโ€™s growl cut through their conversation as he spoke into the radio, โ€œAgain, Carol. Youโ€™re not any closer to the mark than you were the first time. Over.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m sorry, sir. I canโ€™t quite tell where the mark is until Iโ€™m practically on top of it,โ€ she answered. โ€œUm, over.โ€

โ€œYou use your eyes to look,โ€ Lambert snapped.

Hartmann smiled inwardly at the captainโ€™s growing irritation, and commented, โ€œSheโ€™s not going to be ready for combat at this rate,โ€ knowing that it was an unhelpful thing to say.

โ€œShut it, MSG Hartmann. Youโ€™re here to help train Carol, not to narrate the situation.โ€ Lambert rubbed the bridge of his nose.

โ€œSorry, sir.โ€ Hartmann held out his hand. โ€œIn that case, please allow me to assist in training her, sir.โ€ Lambert slapped the radio into his palm, and he spoke into it smoothly, โ€œMSG Hartmann here. If you canโ€™t see the mark on the ground, then use other landmarks that you know are near it. For example, CPT Lambert and I are in the jeep parked near the line, so the closer you get to us, the closer you get to the mile marker. Over.โ€

There was silence for a moment, then Carol answered defensively, โ€œIโ€™m not stupid.โ€

โ€œI know,โ€ Hartmann replied, looking directly at Lambert as he added, โ€œOver.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m just โ€ฆ overwhelmed โ€ฆ over.โ€ Carolโ€™s voice sounded exhausted.

โ€œWeโ€™re all feeling overwhelmed at the moment, but weโ€™ll get through it. At the very least, your connection with the Suit is astounding โ€“ too bad you canโ€™t see yourself from the outside. Over.โ€

โ€œWhat the fuck are you up to?โ€ Lambert growled, and his frowned deepened as Carolโ€™s voice answered,

โ€œThank you, master sergeant. Over.โ€

โ€œSir, you ordered me to be nice,โ€ Hartmann answered dismissively. โ€œI thought she needed encouragement.โ€

โ€œCarol is officially a military asset now, MSG Hartmann. You stick to your bar sluts, and donโ€™t get any ideas into your head. Sheโ€™s off limits.โ€ Lambert continued to scowl.

Hartmann narrowed his eye and shook his head slightly. โ€œYes, sir,โ€ he replied, emphasizing each word separately. โ€œI was simply following your orders.โ€ He forced a scowl as he added, โ€œThough if I may say, sir, she is not anywhere near as young or sexy as the women that I am accustomed to.โ€

Lambert grunted. โ€œGood.โ€

Hartmann wondered if, given the opportunity, the captain would keep to the โ€œoff limitsโ€ rule himself, or if he was secretly envisioning coming home to the cleaning lady cooking dinner and a couple of kids playing in the yard. The war couldnโ€™t last forever, and one day the military would have to surrender to the fact that Carol was a human being.

Why was Lambert also drawn to her? Why was she like a drop of water in their parched existence? There was a long list of things that she wasnโ€™t, and at the end of it came the feeling of relief.

Carol wasnโ€™t fake.

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Handspun Sock Yarn

I finished this a couple weeks ago, but I’m absolutely terrible at getting photos in a timely manner.

The finished yarn that I talked about in this post.

At this point, I’m undecided about whether I feel like using knitting or crochet to make socks. I should probably make little sample squares out of both to see which suits the yarn better, but I’m also keeping my eye out for anything that sings to me.

Stories, The Scions

The Scions – 5a

The best course of action came to him in the middle of the night. Hartmann had seduced the bar chick by playing coy, but she was the exact opposite of Carol in many ways โ€“ such a tactic would backfire if he tried it. Carol, the woman who had perfected invisibility to survive, needed to be seen.

If he acted distant or kept her waiting, she would fade away before he had the chance to make his move. He needed to keep her in his sights. He needed to let her know beyond a doubt that he had seen her.

So, the next morning when he rejoined Carol and captain Lambert, he gave her a warm smile. โ€œHello,โ€ he said. โ€œAre you rested up for more training?โ€

She nodded, answered, โ€œYes, master sergeant,โ€ and looked up to meet his eyes. He noticed the fleck of green in her otherwise brown eyes, and thought about how appropriately they matched her. There was something about Carol that was easy to pass over, that hinted at something colorful inside of her, that he was only now beginning to see after all the time he had spent watching her. Hartmann liked her eyes, and only after Lambert gruffly ordered her to approach him did he realize that he had been staring.

โ€œLetโ€™s get this radio on you,โ€ Lambert said, clipping the receiver onto her shirt. โ€œWeโ€™re going to practice some maneuvers in the Suit today.โ€

โ€œYes, sir.โ€ Carol climbed the ladder up to the cockpit of the Suit, then hesitated and glanced back at Hartmann. He nodded.

โ€œCorporal Holmes is bringing the jeep around for us,โ€ Lambert said quietly to Hartmann. โ€œI want to see how she handles the Suit while we transition outside.โ€

โ€œShe should do much better today, sir,โ€ Hartmann answered, somewhat reluctantly. โ€œProvided that she doesnโ€™t forget how much bigger she is.โ€

Lambert lifted the radio to his mouth and pressed the button as he asked, โ€œCarol, are you settled?โ€

โ€œYes, sir.โ€

โ€œGood. Weโ€™re going back out to the airfield, where you will be drilled on the essential skills of running and stopping.โ€

There was something redundant in Hartmannโ€™s presence. As the top pilot, he knew that he belonged there to offer his expertise, but there wasnโ€™t anything new for him to say; Carol was the one who had full access to the Suit, while he had merely mastered the demo version; he had no clue how much more the Suit was capable of. With Lambert coaching her through the drills, Hartmann was left to sit and watch.

โ€œIs that all, sir?โ€ Carol asked, sounding surprised.

โ€œItโ€™s harder than you think, commander.โ€ Lambert shook his head. โ€œGo on and get your ass outside.โ€

โ€œThis is all unorthodox,โ€ Hartmann muttered as they watched Carol precede them through the giant double doors. โ€œI suppose that we arenโ€™t going to bother with teaching her how to stand at attention and salute.โ€

Lambert shook his head. โ€œCarol is โ€ฆ the classified radical faction in the military. We can skip building her identity as a soldier and go straight into the specifics of what she needs to know.โ€

โ€œLike how to take out the enemy without blowing up a hospital in the process.โ€ Hartmann smirked. โ€œWeโ€™re in trouble, sir.โ€

โ€œI know.โ€ Lambert lifted the radio up and spoke into it, โ€œOkay, Carol. Thereโ€™s a mile marker painted on the ground out there. I want you to run as fast as you can, then stop precisely on it without overshooting.โ€

โ€œYes, sir,โ€ Carol replied, then took off.

Corporal Holmes was ready with the jeep, so Hartmann waited until they were both settled in their seats with the younger soldier as a witness before he said, โ€œYou need to teach her proper radio protocol, instead of using it like youโ€™re chatting on the phone to your girlfriend โ€ฆ sir.โ€

Lambertโ€™s jaw twitched, and his face turned the slightest bit red. Holmes silently chuckled. โ€œYouโ€™re right,โ€ he admitted quietly, then cleared his throat. โ€œSheโ€™s going to need to know how to communicate efficiently.โ€

As they approached in the jeep, Hartmann said, โ€œLooks like she overshot,โ€ and pointed to where the Suit was standing some distance away from the marker.

โ€œDammit,โ€ Lambert growled, then said into the radio, โ€œCarol, youโ€™re way off. Over.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m sorry, sir. When I tried to stop, my feet just kept going on their own,โ€ she replied.

โ€œWhen youโ€™re done speaking, you need to be in the habit of saying over.โ€ Lambert rubbed the bridge of his nose. โ€œYou know about stopping distance with driving a car, right? Over.โ€

โ€œNo, sir. Iโ€™ve always ridden the bus.โ€ There was a pause, then Carol quickly added, โ€œOver?โ€

โ€œOf course she wouldnโ€™t know,โ€ Lambert muttered to himself. โ€œThat would be too convenient.โ€

Hartmann took the radio. โ€œMSG Hartmann here. Bigger objects like the Suit get a lot of momentum going, especially when youโ€™re moving fast. If you want to stop on target, you need to start slowing down before you reach it. Try again, now. Over.โ€

Lambert scowled. With his little comment, Hartmann had put the captain in the position of becoming self-conscious about how he treated his subordinate, and it was starting to eat at him. Especially with corporal Holmes silently bearing witness.