I’ve been busy with mundane things, like getting a cavity filled at the dentist and going to a neighbor’s birthday party.
Ever since I let go of the expectation to have friends, socializing became a lot easier for me. Funny, really, but now I sit in the dentist chair and say whatever comes to mind, because I don’t feel any pressure to be likable. I can go to busy birthday parties and sit alone without feeling weird about it.
I never could get comfortable with scheduling play dates — they always felt so unnatural and forced.
I’m very much not everyone’s cup of tea. It took me a long time to realize that people were going to be offended by me no matter what, so I might as well own it.
Anyway, I still end up drained from interacting with people, so I’ve been recharging.